Depression
If anybody is in a good mood please read no further. Depresssion is a depressing topic, and being anywhere near a depressed person will bring you down.
Right now I am going through a depressed period. It will pass. I'm not trying to depress anybody, but I just wish that more people understood Depression. You can't just 'snap out of it'. You can only muddle your way through as best you can.
I have been diagnosed with Major Depression, Dysthymic Disorder, and Social Anxiety Disorder. I am on medication, but medication alone does not always do it. Dysthymic Disorder is a condition of constant sadness. Looking back, I realize I've always had that condition. Throughout my life people have made comments about how little I smile.
The medication keeps me on a fairly even keel, but sometimes I get so down, I just hit the bed and stay there. There's a website that fully describes how I feel and if anybody is interested please check it out at www.psychologyinfo.com/depression/major . I just want people to understand!
One of the ways that my depression hits me is that I have become a compulsive spender! That is why I cannot go to the Mall! I will buy something that I cannot afford. Not just cheap things...usually expensive things...like our Surround Sound System. Or something - usually electronic - that I need, but can't afford. And I can't go to the Legion anymore, because I will gamble on the poker machines...and always lose. The safest place for me to be is in my home. I have only left the house once since we got back from Yarmouth...and that was to go to the Doctor and I had to hurry home. Jim does the grocery shopping because I will spend way too much. If I shop for clothes, I will probably buy two of three of the same item in different colors. I have some clothes I have never even worn yet! So the only way to control these impulses to avoid the temptation.
Also, I have an addictive personality - cigarettes, cola (caffeine), chocolate, hickory sticks and alcohol. I have managed to get the alcohol under control because it makes me too sick now.
Okay, that's enough I guess...but as I said, I just wish people would understand and not think less of me because of the way I act sometimes. As in withdrawn and unsociable, and gloomy.
Love you all guys...Take care.
Right now I am going through a depressed period. It will pass. I'm not trying to depress anybody, but I just wish that more people understood Depression. You can't just 'snap out of it'. You can only muddle your way through as best you can.
I have been diagnosed with Major Depression, Dysthymic Disorder, and Social Anxiety Disorder. I am on medication, but medication alone does not always do it. Dysthymic Disorder is a condition of constant sadness. Looking back, I realize I've always had that condition. Throughout my life people have made comments about how little I smile.
The medication keeps me on a fairly even keel, but sometimes I get so down, I just hit the bed and stay there. There's a website that fully describes how I feel and if anybody is interested please check it out at www.psychologyinfo.com/depression/major . I just want people to understand!
One of the ways that my depression hits me is that I have become a compulsive spender! That is why I cannot go to the Mall! I will buy something that I cannot afford. Not just cheap things...usually expensive things...like our Surround Sound System. Or something - usually electronic - that I need, but can't afford. And I can't go to the Legion anymore, because I will gamble on the poker machines...and always lose. The safest place for me to be is in my home. I have only left the house once since we got back from Yarmouth...and that was to go to the Doctor and I had to hurry home. Jim does the grocery shopping because I will spend way too much. If I shop for clothes, I will probably buy two of three of the same item in different colors. I have some clothes I have never even worn yet! So the only way to control these impulses to avoid the temptation.
Also, I have an addictive personality - cigarettes, cola (caffeine), chocolate, hickory sticks and alcohol. I have managed to get the alcohol under control because it makes me too sick now.
Okay, that's enough I guess...but as I said, I just wish people would understand and not think less of me because of the way I act sometimes. As in withdrawn and unsociable, and gloomy.
Love you all guys...Take care.
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P.S. I just found out that the drug I'm taking for my ear infection (Cipro)may cause drowsiness and depression, so perhaps that accounts for my mood this week.
We're all suffering from the same condition, it's called "human". Thanks for sharing, and anyone who thinks "less" of you needs to examine their own soul- we are all a work in progress and all struggle with our imperfections- all we can do is love and accept each other, and WATCH OUT FOR THOSE MEDICATIONS!!!! love you sue
I guess I shouldn't bug you when you don't blog, but then you wouldn't feel missed or loved!!!!
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