Hi all

I haven't been online for quite a while and I haven't checked Facebook or the blogs for quite a while.
The reason for this is very hard to explain. I am being plagued by a huge bout of depression. Now, for those of you who have never experienced this, it is very hard to explain. And very hard to understand. But, I am hoping you can understand that this is a very debilitating problem and very hard to deal with.
But I wake up every morning with a very dark cloud over my head..and I try to sleep as much as I can. I even take sleeping pills during the day in order to sleep.
So, I really didn't want to bring everybody down.
Usually it passes, and so I am waiting for that to happen.
But, I still love you all
Marsha

Ok

So..ok...I've been very sick with a cold since Dad left. Jim DID NOT go to the Doctor. I tried, but unless I could physically carry him to the Dr..there was nothing I could do.
So..the new blood test ordered really freaked him out. But I looked it up...Google is cool! For anyone else who wants to look it up....just type 'Blood Test CA 119-19. That will take you right there. Anyhoo, as far as I can figure the test is just a comparison to the one they took before he had the procedure. It's a comparison to see if the procedure helped.
However, since he feels so sick...he really does not believe that...and now has it in his head that quote "I'm on my way out". Which was hard for me, because for the first time since he got sick...he was throwing up all afternoon...
He blamed me because he ate one of my bagels.....
His throat was sore from throwing up.
And all he ate was a bagel.
I don't know how to make him go back to the Doctor. Any suggestions, anyone? He's getting thinner and thinner.....his shoulders are all hunched, and his legs are actually skinny. The only word I can think of when I look at him is 'emaciated'.
Imaging....Big Jim looking emaciated.
So..that's the news. Wish it could have been better.
Love, Marsh

Worry, worry, worry

This is not going to be a fun blog, or a sarcastic blog or even a rant. This a blog because I need to talk to somebody!!!!!
Jim has been very sick all weekend. It all started with a wonderful, delicious stew that he made for us....and Dad. So, Jim had some as well, and has been suffering ever since. He went back to broth and jello, but even that bothered him. He hasn't left the house since Friday night. I fear we did not entertain Dad very well...Jim was sick, and I was catching a cold....both of us slept most of Saturday, leaving Dad on his own!!!!!! So sorry about that Dad!
Anyway on Friday, we got a call from Dr. Farina....that's the one who did the ERCP in Halifax. Actually, we just got the voice message, and it said that they had gotten a request for MORE blood tests and we would be receiving the request in the mail, and to get them done here. We have no idea who ordered the new blood tests or why?
If Jim's Doctor got the recent blood tests done last week, and saw something weird, why didn't he call us and say "I saw something weird and I'm getting Dr Farina to order more blood tests" or something to that effect?
My point is....what the heck is going on! And now Jim can't eat anything and he's hungry and in pain!
I have a really yucky cold that is getting worse as time goes on...after Dad left this morning I went back to bed and slept until four...woke up still feeling yucky. But what bothers me more is how terrible Jim looks. I swear he has barely moved from the chair in the living room except to go to the bathroom...and he hasn't slept very much at all.
Tomorrow I have to call two Doctors to try to get to the bottom of this...Jim doesn't like to call and even if he did, he probably wouldn't remember what they told him. And I am worrying myself to death at this point.
Well, sorry for being such a 'downer'..but I just had to get this out. And once again I apologize to Dad for what must have been the most boring weekend he has ever spent in his life. Sorry Dad!
Well, love to you all...'
Will keep you posted.
Marsh